If you were to tell me 6 yrs ago that I would be single I would have never believed you. All of my teenage yrs I have had boyfriends..regardless if it was short term or long term.  my very last and yet very serious realtionship ended 2 yrs ago. I thought that was it. He was and still is the most amazing man i ever met. We still talk and see each other everytime i go back home. You see the reason we broke up was b.c of my moving. Long distance breaks wonderful things. So come august 2nd I will be moving back to west palm beach. Im not so sure if things between hom and I will work. But you never know. Im just wondering where is mister Right? I know he is out there somewhere....just where? im only 22 but im ready to find that one person that can sweep me off my feet, give me butterflies, take my breath away, make me laught and make me fall completly inlove with them. It has got to be the most amazing feeling in the world. The gift of being inlove has got to be one of gods greatest gifts. I guess im lonly all my friends are in relationships and then theres me. Its not like I dont get asked out because I do. But I am very picky...no you know what it is? Its the fact that i compare everyone to my x . NOT A GOOD THING! I have given guys chances but they always seem to blow it. Like this one time I gave this guy a chance, he took me to fun station! 1st of call FUN STATION REALLY? ugh! But get this before he even picked me up he made sure to tell me " Hey make sure you eat before we go out im not buying you dinner" WoW deal breaker right there! so not only is this guy cheap and corny but he takes me put put golfing in 20 degree weather....really honestly is this happening? Oh it was and it did!  so I finally say you know what im not enjoying put put golfing in 20 degree weather. He yangs my gold club and turns them in...then wants to play some video games. so i agree its always fun being competive. Not so much....every freakin game we played he wined....Air Hockey he lost but made it right by saying i cheated so we pleayed again i won again  he was getting mad and sayin i cheat..so we played i put no effort in this time and he won freakin baby. Then we go play ski ball I win more tickets and oh no that is just not ok with him. so i throw the damn tickets in his face and say take them u need them more than i do TRUST ME. So then we go on to play som CSI Gun shooting game. We play i have the higher score he stops throws the gun at the game and screams....my FUCKIN GUNS BROKEN. I say TAKE ME THE FUCK HOME NOW! he says whats wrong. I said this just isnt going to work your out of your damn mind. haha. so he takes me home i peace out never spoke to him again.
Its just I always seem to attrack cry babies mommas boys ass holes.....WHERE IS MISTER RIGHT! ughhh!
one day he will come along. I guess theres nothing I can do but be paticent! xoxo

Seriously, is it ok to just drop someone out of the blue?
I have been asking myself this question for about 3 weeks now.....why b.c my so called best friend seemed to get bored one day and make up some petty excuse to not hang out anymore. Its sad really.
So let me ask you this?
Am I totally missing something or is this not the most ridic excuse to be mad.
Not seeing a certain movie with them, even though I invinted her and she declined because she had other plans? Is this My problem or hers?
So confused. It normally wouldnt bother me b.c hey if someone doesnt want to be friends with me over something so petty then thats fine. I dont need the drama nor do i need the bullshit. But I have been friends with this person for almost 21 years now. so its just sad to me that she would just want to throw it all away and be selfish and SO RIDIC!
So I am asking you all...am I being insensitive? Should i have waited to see the movie with her and base my life around her and her plans! Should I even care at this point? I feel I did nothing wrong?

Im not one to deal with bullshit or Drama...I tend to stay far away from it. so this is just a pissing me off. I just feel like treating a friend this way is beyond me. A friend is someone who you depend on...you shouldnt have to depend on them to screw you. All advice is welcome im curious to know if im in the wrong or right?

3 years ago today you left us. I know not by choice but we miss you. Moms doing great she looks better than ever. You wouldnt belive how big sydney and josh are getting. Tyler is big man on campus in college. He is in a frat and loving every moment of it. Im in T-Town but not for too much longer. Im moving home to mom and the kids. I miss them dearly and things arent working out for me here.
Every now and then I can smell you. The scent of your Angel perfume lingers in the air. Mom still hasnt touched your bathroom its like your still there. your tooth brush and all are still lying on the counter. She did go through your closet and give some things away but not much. she put a lock on it and goes in there every now and then and smells your clothes.
Sydeny Dresses her huge teddy bear in your shirts and sprays your perfume on them. She misses you dearly but doesnt like talking about it.  Josh sits and trys to talk to you. I remeber right after you passed away he was jumping on the bed and reaching for the sky...I said what are you doing joshy? he Replied trying to reach daddy in heaven. He askes is he can call you all the time. He asks me to call god and see if you can come to the house for the day.
Mom kept all the pictures of you and her up in the house. she talks about you often. She got into a car accident last friday. Thank god she is ok.
We miss you Dad. Hope Heaven is treating you well. See you when I see you. Love you.

Friendship....does it exist? Is it real or Fake?
* I have come to find that Friendship is very hard to come by. In answer to my own question I do belive friendship is real if you find a  friend who is loyal and true to you.
* I have been through hell and back with my so called Friends. Now im sure thats what most people think makes friendship going through hell and back with that person. But i have come to find that most of your so called friends are back stabbers. Friends that are nice to your face and can talk behind your back all day long and have no problem with it.  Fake people. I cant stand them and I dont have time for them nor do I have time for there drama. If you have one true friend then you have more than your share. Friends are so hard to find now a days. And i concider myself one of the luckiest people in the world. My friend has been there for me through thick and thin. She is loyal and true and has never done anything to make me think other wise. Its actually sad because come the august 2nd we will both be moving away from one another. she will go to Atlanta and I will be moving down florida even further to West Palm. so we wont be close by one another any longer. Im not sure how to handle this situation and im pretty sure saying goodbye isnt going to be easy. we have been Best friends for a long time now and she as I have been rocks for one another. I have a feeling this isnt going to be very easy on me. I have friends in West Palm but whats a girl without her Bestest!

I guess looking on the brighter side if your lucky your friends are only a phone call away and if you need them they will be there for you day or night no matter what time it is. I have a very good friend Cori that lives in west palm. She is like my sister. She is a wife and a mother of 2 now. She really inspires in me to be something great. I look up to her. She has such stregth and patience. Her love for her family is endless and her friendship is amazing.

So Not only do I have one Best Friend But I have 2. Way more that any girl should be blessed with. One will be so far from me while the other is right where i will be living! one will be greatly missed while the other will be greatly appreciated. this isnt going to be an easy move but thank god for friends. They really help you through so pretty hard times.